Choices

Life is full of choices, and when it comes to me I tend to make choices that are sometimes bad but, it turns out to be good for me in the long run.I have made some choices, some serious choices which brings me to where I am right now.

Moving across the world alone is not an easy thing.Leaving everything and everyone you know is something that anyone would think about atleast ten times but, I did not have much choice on deciding that and I had to make a choice that was going to change my life forever.Either I could drop a year and prepare for NEET or I could get into the college abroad, where I was qualified to get an admission.And I chose the latter and it is by far the best decision that i ever made.

The one thing that I have known about myself is that, I get a major anxiety when I am in a public place and that has improved a lot since I got here.But the day that I was told to get ready to leave the country was when my anxiety started building up more and more.The nearer the day for me to leave the country arrived, the more anxious I had become.All I could think was-What am I gonna do without my parents or friends or family?. People asked me if I was scared to leave my home and start an entirely new life in a new continent which to be honest, is the most stupid question that anyone could ask someone who was doing that. Inspite of all the excitement that came with what I was going to do, it came with a package and it was the fear of missing home and fear of dissappointing my parents and the latter one was bothering the heck out of me.The day for my departure arrived swiftly and I could not sleep the night before.Morning came early for me and I was weeping in our hotel bathroom.I was scared.

The feeling when arriving in Kiev was totally different as it was my first time doing it all alone.I was excited and I found that to be strange because I was not feeling like a scared little girl anymore.I somehow knew that from now I had to do it all alone. Hostel was nice but it was a co-ed hostel and that meant boys and girls could come and go in each others rooms whenever they felt like and it did not sit well with me. Again, I had to make a choice-either live with the fact that anyone can burst into your room whenever they feel like or rent an apartment and have a private life.Here again I chose the latter.Apartments are surprisingly not that expensive as compared to my country and it is a double bonus for me as I am splitting the rent with my two other flatmates.My classes started soon after I moved into the apartment but my roommate and me, we were in different groups which means we were having totally different schedules inspite of being in the first year of college.Another challenge, I had to travel by myself. Great. I am not that good with maps and this was such a big thing for me and I was almost tempted to use Uber as my transportation but Uber over here is kinda expensive and I had no choice but to travel in the bus using the translator and the maps as the language over here was a total alien to me and it still is but I no longer need my translator as I have begun to understand some basics like, please, thank you, excuse me, etc., and talking about the map, I still use it, its my comfort item and I have improved a lot and last week I found the correct route to my nearest ATM.

2017 is the year that my life changed completely. I like the changes, looking back at the old dependent me, I could have never done those things that i had to do here alone like walking all alone to the bus stand and waiting for the right bus while pretending to be on the phone with someone because you have no one to talk to by your side, asking your fellow passenger to pass on your bus fare while anxiously waiting for the change to come back to you and thinking what if this was India?, your fare would have never reached the conductor and laughing to myself because there is no one to share your thoughts with, going to the university a bit earlier than the rest of them in order to search for the room number for your scheduled class. If I had a choice to be able to do all of that with a friend the old me would have taken that in a split second but now I will not change a single thing because it has made me the way I am today. Looking back I never understood why I never felt the need to do something on my own, I always used to drag my friends around in order to get my stuffs done, I was too dependent on my friends and I was too scared to come out my comfort zone but now everything has changed. The lesser company you have the more you are compelled to do things on your own.

My choices made me who I am today and how I can do things on my own now without waiting for someone to do it for me.This new year I will have my fare share of choices to make and I hope that I make the best ones. Everybody has a choice in their life-either stay in your cocoon like I used to before or push yourselves a little bit everyday to do things that you could never fathom.I encourage you to make a choice that you are most scared of because one day you will discover that you are fierce and strong and full of fire, and that not even you yourself can hold you back because you gotta do what you gotta do. If you choose what you fear the most it will be gone when you achieve it because fear is temporary but if you don’t face your fear the regret you will have is permanent. 

New year will bring you many opportunities and you will need to make some choices. Its okay to be scared because that means you are about to do something really really brave.Even I am scared of all the wrong choices that I might make but lets face the fear and do it anyway.Its your choice and whatever you choose I pray that it will be the right one.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

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Saying goodbye

When you think of going abroad to study it sends chills down your spine.You tend to get excited with the thought of it. When reality hits you that you are really leaving everything behind and going to study there then cue the anxiety.

Hello world, here I come.

Oh God!!!Help me.

Kyiv is a beautiful city, being the capital of Ukraine, it holds a lot of culture, is what I have heard. But I will have to wait to witness it until I get there this month.

“Adrenaline rush” is the word, that I will give you when you ask me how I feel. I am scared, not the bad kind, to be precise but mostly scared of not being able to see my family and friends for a long, really long time.

Six years is a lot of time.

A lot changes when you are away and my little cousins may not even recognise me when I come back. But that has the least of my worries, what worries me the most is that, I may not be there when my family needs me the most.

My family, they are so worried about me. Well who wouldn’t worry about their children leaving their nest and learning to fly??

My mother tears up every time the topic about me leaving comes up. But I can’t stay in my comfort bubble forever now can I???

As the fear of leaving home and saying goodbye to everyone I know is making me more and more axnious, I feel that I am finally ready now and as I go, hope and prayer is all that I can take with me to the place that I am going for the least of six years. And I know that it will keep me safe.

“Have courage and be kind” and everything will be alright.

Take your time.


Living in a modern world,where so many things happen in just a split second  for sure is a challenge.Nowadays, the tendency of  us humans to multitask has increased so much,that we miss more important things in life when we are too busy catching up on other unimportant things all at once.

Take your time. What is all the rush for???Even a simple thing like swallowing and breathing cannot be done at the same time so, how can you expect yourselves to do everything at once???All great achievements takes time.So,the next time you feel knackered by all the disappointments in your life,always remember that the important thing is to take your time and not get stressed.

As they say ”Rome was not built in a day“,the same way you cannot expect to get success the same day you start. It takes time and one must be willing to take time because when you take your time great things happen.

Success is sure to come to those who are willing to take time and wait.And waiting is not something that everybody is very good at.Well at least not me!!! but as we walk the path of our lives,we must learn to be glad in whatever situation we are in because it is either a”BLESSING” or a “LESSON“.

“Give it some time because time heals” they say, but yet, we tend to cling to one thing that, in the long run may or may not be as important to us anymore.So,what is the point???It is better to take our time and at least for once, forget about all the expectations that you are told to live upto or the disappointments that you may or may have caused.What for ???Is it all just for taking your time???

Learn to embrace the chaos and give in to the truth that life is not always a bed full of roses.Do not expect that there will always be a signboard in your life directing the way you should go.You will get lost in the way and that is good because once you take your time and find the way, it will be much better as you will know the way, the best you’ve ever known.And amongst all these always remember to take your time. Catch your breath and take your time.



*Thank you all for reading my post.If you have any questions about my blog or have any kind of suggestion about what I should be writing next, you can always mention it on the comment section or your can email me your ideas.*

Competitive exams!Does it really do justice???

In today’s world that we are living in,nothing exists without a competition.There always will be one thing or the other that we are willing to fight with in order to prove our fact or simply putting it,to prove that we are worthy of the victory.

Take the exact same thing and apply it to the education system and you will be looking right through the education system of today’s world.COMPETITION.This one word,that changed the face of education completely.With competition came the competitive exams and it brought with it a lots of extras such as pressure among the students,an agent that completely blew up the stress level that a student has to face unnecessarily.

I myself being a pre-med student,have a full access to something that I never wanted.Dreaming of becoming a doctor as a child is just as easy as dreaming to be one when you are of age,excluding the bitter truth that this time you realize that a single page will decide your worth.

Every field has competition.No matter how small or big it may be,your final result in it decides whether you have been correct all along or you were just being played to be a fool by your own dreams.Competitive exams happen to take away all the rights of many deserving candidate just because of some stupid mistake one makes while marking the bubble.

How bizzarre is it that all the hardwork you have done will just be a sweet  amnesia if you are not able to circle the correct bubble???What if you have all that you need inorder  to be that one deserving candidate but your hands worked the wrong way???What if the one whose paper decided that he was the worthy candidate,is actually someone who crammed up everysingle thing that he could just for that one day and after that it is all gone out of his brain.What then???

Life as we know it

Life as we know it,is not all flowers and candies.”HARDSHIPS”is what we face most of the time and when it comes to being a student it is a word that we must adjust ourselves into.Hardwork,perseverance,discipline,patience.These are some of the qualifications that are needed to be labeled as”THE BEST ONES”.But what if we lack these???Are we the”BAD ONES”???People often tend to label students in these two categories.During my high school days I was made known that in order to be remembered,a student must be extremely “GOOD”,so good,that his/her parents will be ‘escorted’to the principal’s office so that they will know how good their ward is .If it is not the case,then one has to be extremely bad,so bad,that their parents will be called to be warned that their ward is a problematic kid.But the real question here is, what about the mediocre???Who pays attention to them?Who pays attention to all the hard work that he does that somehow,does not pay off?What about all the times that he sacrificed in order to get an average score??Who is there to tell them that even they will be remembered???The situation of a mediocre is exactly what I want to bring into light.

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My story

Well this being my first blog ever,I am pretty sure it is going to be the worst.Trust me I am going to improve if you give me a chance.So here I am telling you about how I got into blogging.I am a big YouTube fan as in the sense I can watch vlogs for hours at a stretch.I always wanted to be a vlogger but given that I had a poor location and no equipments at hand I had to give up.I actually am a shy person so facing a camera was going to be major work and a challenge but little did I know that I could do what I loved without being visual or having to face the camera.Thats when I realised that all along I was unaware of something called “Blogging”.So here I am writing down my encounter with blog.The reason that I am writing this is because there might be thousands of people like me  who have had the problem that I had  but it should not stop you from doing what you love.You could do what you love in many different ways and trust me one day you will make it if you keep on trying.It is correctly said when there is a will there is a way.So many of you who are facing the same kind of situation that I was in before try and find the most creative alternative that you possibly can and let the passion inside you make the world stand in awe of you.Be creative.Be imaginative.Be focused and be positive.